Monday, February 9, 2009
Never before did I picture myself dating a Marine but it happened and sure enough i'm the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. He is the perfect man for me and I absolutely can not wait until we can finally start a life together. The only problem is I still have four months of school left and he's stationed two states away. I love every thing about him. Recently he found out that he's getting deployed in May and he's going to Afghanistan for six months, which is alot better than the original twelve he was going to have to do but it is still a very long time. There is no doubt in my mind that our relationship can survive this deployment. I'm a very strong person and I know that I will be there the day he leaves just as i'll be there waiting on him the day he comes back. I'm still scared though. I know not a day will go by when i'm not thinking about him and praying he comes home safe when he's gone. Today he asked me if he died would I do him a favor and he asked me to promise him that if he died I would try to find someone else to make me happy in life. Before we even started dating I realized that I was going to be with a Marine, you have accept the fact that his job will take him away from you time and time again and put him in harms way if need be. I plan on joining the Military myself and I fully understand and accept that it is his job to serve his country. It is still very scary though. He told me he didn't plan on dying because he doesn't think i deserve anymore misfortune, i've lost so many loved ones already and been through so much in my life. He promised to do everything he can while hes gone to stay alive and come back to me and that means everything to me. I know that it's going to be hard and I accept that but i'm going to miss him like crazy. He has changed my life completely and there is no doubt in my mind that he is the man I want to spend my life with. I am so truely blessed and so lucky to be with such an amazing Marine and a great Man. I'm proud of him and the day we are finally able to start a life together will be the happiest day of my life.